Ang Pamilyang Becky

Sabi nila madali gumawa nang isang tao pero ang pagiging tao ay isang mahirap na tumutukoy ito bilang isang magulang paano kung isang magulang ay mga bakla , tomboy , na meron isang mga supling mga bata na maituturing nating na Pamilya talaga .

Sa buhay na tao isa itong minimithi na magkaroon na isang pamilya pero ito ay nagbabago  na tumatakbo nang panahon kaya't kahit sino mayroon karapatan magkaroon nang matatawag nang isang pamilya na dapat natin siyang tanggapin at isang itong karapatan bilang isang pamilya na isang elemento o pundasyon nang isang mamayan .

Pero may ibang mga taong nagtaas na kilay na ito'y isang lampastangan sa kagustuhan nang Maykapal o kalikasan sa tingin ko naman kahit ganito kami may kapasidad kami at responsibilidad na makabuo o magkaroon katulad nang isang ordinaryong pamilya pero ang kaibahan lang ay parehong kasarian ang  nagtaguyod .

Sex Addict ba ako ?

Nito nakaraan araw parang hindi ako makakilos na normal parang meron hinahanap na kakaiba  gawin na gustong gusto ko pero hindi ko alam sa sarili parang naiinit o walang tinu sa ang aking sarili parang uhaw ako sa kalinga na gusto na meron taong o bagay na makuha  ku naman pagkatapos ay hanap hanapin ko ulit ulitin uli o hindi mawala sa aking isip sabi nila isang itong daw sintomas nang isang "ADDICT" pero ako kakaibang klaseng "ADDICT "ito ay  "SEX "oo tama ang nabasa ninyo isa po akong " SEX ADDICT "na parang hindi ako makakakilos na tama lalot na kung walang magawa sa buhay ay maghahanap ako nang makikipagtalik lalo nang kung malibog ako kung sinu sino kapag mayroon akong makakita na akong nakabrief na lalaki tumitigas ang aking titi na malilibogan ako para mawawala ako sa sarili pag iisip na .

Sabi nila ang pagsugpo o paghilom nang ganitong sakit ay mahabang-habang proseso na dapat may dapat kumakailinga sayo pero sa akin sitwasyon wala naman taong makakatulong bagkos sila pa ang isumpa ka sa maling ginawa mo imbes susuporta sa iyo . Ang panalangin ko sa Maykapal sana naman na makaya  kung paano gagamutin ito mag-isa

Ang Malaking Tanong sa Buhay ?

Paano ba magsimula ang isang taong galing pagkadapa ?

    Paano ba magsimula na halos walang wala  ka  ?

      Paano ba magsimula sa pagbabangon na halos wala kang pag -asa sa buhay ?

Sabi nila gawin mo lahat makakaya sa pagbangon dahil ang Diyos may kadahilan ang mga bagay pangyayari 

  Sawari ko ay  na tayo lamang ang gumawa nang ating mga buhay kung bakit ganito ang buhay natin 

Kaya't tinanong ko sa Maykapal sa mga katanungan Bakit? Paano ? Saan? ako magsisimula sa buhay ko.

                                   Madaling sabihin sa iba sa pasabi bumangon ka sa pagkadapa at magsimula pero hindi kadaling gawin .

    Ako Bahala na ang Diyos  kung saan anong mangyayari sa makulay na buhay

Stress na me

This past few weeks I am feel stress from new job which is unexpected , surprise and most risky that i have add for it i almost stress because of the roof that I am staying is have a huge leak. Sometimes when you get feel to be stress it almost you give your full energy to finish  and sometimes you will panic what to do just a days ago which i dunno what to do or shall do in order to finish the work .Some say it's in our mind on how to manage or control of it not the stress will manage us which it's true especially me that the stress of my work are so intense just like in my previous job which is so seldom to feel tension of work .I hope that my stress in work and in my home will be lesser so that  i have chance to relax myself 

Rejection

This past few days I have been applying to look for new job which been lay off in my previous job that I been there almost 6 years . And then first week of  May I applied in call center which turns out rejected and then the next day again rejected and so forth

So I begin realized of this processed that it so hard to rejected  which you think or wanted something  it feels hurt as the pain in goes sometimes you get cry because they said it's failure , sometimes we have feeling the " Why me " question . But they said it's a blessing coz maybe there a lesson it's sound negative but inner core of  being rejected it has positive which we configure out later. 

Sometimes I asked to myself  why should we going of this process to being rejected ?and how we should we deal for it ?  but for me i know for sure there 's a good light of this dark tunnel of being rejected

Sometimes

Why is life sometimes your at the tipping or top of what you are
   There are times you on downside side of life
      Is it here to understand or can someone give explanation

        Or it's a blessing you have to accept and grateful for on 

 

                                                                            Sometimes we would asked to ourselves Is it unfair for it?

                                                    Maybe we have to configure out  there something wrong right to be fix

                                             Some other people are on denied to accept the reality of what they have done 

                                 But I know for sure there's bright full of goodness to come are waiting for us in long   

           Dark tunnel which like to embracing.

Day 5

Been tough this day challenge  coz one of my fling friend call me in the middle of the busy schedule workin the. Ask me if that's okey to come here in my place but did i said no coz there 's a pile of work that  needed to be finished which makes it my alibi so he should meet me in my place next time .

Day 4

Keeping myself  busy of the  first monday of 2011 that is my tactics so that my mine will purified from crude thoughts that results to breaking challenges i hope this will be continue :D xoxoxox

Day 3

Its been tough and challenge of this day in which i dream that i fuck someone which my super junior getting  hard everyday

Day 2

Its get started on the second day that i almost starting wanking this cold and rainy days but it keeps me remind and controlling myself that i've never do it  until the challenges is finished

Day 1

It so very relaxed of the first day of challenge which ive spent time with my family on new year eve that makes the first day of the challenge success

No Sex for 40 days and 40 nights Challenge

This idea pop of my head and the same time some sort of resolution for this new years to test or challenge myself if i can survived without sex ,wanking for 40 days and 40 nights .

 I've tried once this kind of challenges but it takes 2 days for which there are lot of trial and temptation on going of this that result to failed . So i decide to do it second time this time it will be finish until the end of the challenges just pray and wish me luck. :D