Day 2

Its get started on the second day that i almost starting wanking this cold and rainy days but it keeps me remind and controlling myself that i've never do it  until the challenges is finished

Day 1

It so very relaxed of the first day of challenge which ive spent time with my family on new year eve that makes the first day of the challenge success

No Sex for 40 days and 40 nights Challenge

This idea pop of my head and the same time some sort of resolution for this new years to test or challenge myself if i can survived without sex ,wanking for 40 days and 40 nights .

 I've tried once this kind of challenges but it takes 2 days for which there are lot of trial and temptation on going of this that result to failed . So i decide to do it second time this time it will be finish until the end of the challenges just pray and wish me luck. :D

What If ?!!!!!!

What If 

            - Isa akong Playboy na Guy , Matinik sa chikababes , Habulin nang mga magandang babae, Babaeromarahil maraming na ako pinaiyak na babae, pinabuntis na babae at maraming babae makadarapa   sa akin  nang walang kahira hirap ,,,,,

   What If

- Isa akong Matronang Babae , Sugar Mommy siguro maraming mga sariwa , presko at batang - bata lalaki na pinagbibili ko o binibilhin ko na lahat nang luho kung anong gusto niya ( parang katulad sa tunay buhay hehheheh :D )

What If 

- Isa akong Closetang Bakla na walang nakaalam kung sino ang totoo ako . Na  akala sa lahat na straight ako na meron akong syota ,lahat nang pangpanggap ay ginawa ko para hindi mahalata ang lungkot siguro nang buhay ko 

What If  

- Isa akong Maalindog,Gwapo na pumapatol sa klase- klase  kasarian mapababae o malalaki mabakla or tomboy gaya sa buhay ni "Giacomo Casanova" na lahat ay natikman nya diba ang thrilled nang buhay niya .

What If 

- Isa akong Mayaman pero pangit na bading lahat na gusto ko ay mabibili ko ....

What If   

- Isa akong succesful both lovelife and career Gay guy na laging inaasam at pinapangarap nang kahit sino bakla sa mundo na ganitong masayang buhay............. 

    

Alone in a Lonely World

The silent endless night in a dark , cold ,jail place that your alone which you feel unpleasant ,discomfort and feel wanted to someone to help you for loneliness.

 

But no could talk  you coz ur alone in a lonely world that yourself wanting to go out of this lonely world but you don't how to get this that everytime you resist 

 

But it keeps going near to you somes said it was as we create this lonely world but others say its a gift .

 

I dunno what the cause real behind of being alone in a lonely world come what may it comes to me

Coming out !!!!!

When the word "coming out" its connect to the lesbian , gay, bisexual to disclosure or found their real identity or sexual presentation . For its a long process that the " outing " person will affected but also the environment surrounds .In this process  of "outing " of certain person it needs more love, attention, acceptance for what he / she is the real person himself/herself . For other people coming out is hard to say it to their  families, friends , or community because of fear, ashamed and rejected if they do wanted to go "outing"  which some of  others wants to be closet of their sexuality and others are attempt suicide for their open up themselves of their love one which until now is still exist happens in our society today.

Many of us still ask why should a gay , lesbian or bisexual to be outing or come out ? does it should needed ? for me it should be coz as long as you keep denying about yourself  who really you are its like keeping poisoning ,killed  and tortured our inner identity  little by little . At the end of the day you will be regret for it on the other side some of the positive outcomes may be increased self-esteem, greater honesty in one’s life, and a sense of greater personal integrity. In addition, there is often a sense of relief and a reduction of tension when one stops trying to deny or hide such an important part of his/her life. Coming out can lead to greater freedom of self-expression, positive sense of self and more healthy and honest relationships.

Honestly I've never experience in my whole life to come out or to open up my sexuality to my parents coz they already sense that i am gay which there is no need to tell them especially my Mother is wholeheartedly accepted me for who i am while my Father is opposite that is very reluctant feeling towards me as son in which all i can to do is understand of his situation .

Every time when i read  and watched coming out stories for which I  can relate to myself to them 

especially those  parents are against or cannot accept their son or daughter  for being gay 

I hope and pray someday more  people will be more understand , tolerant  ,accepting those people are" COMING OUT from the DARK CLOSET "

Joining me and Joining You !!!!

I've decide to myself to join this blogger group in which they have event called  collective blogging talks about
 coming out topic will be posted this Sept 1 .Im so excited for this outcomes and meet new bloggers just like me :D